Apparently there is an unspoken rule in the blogosphere that if you blog and also recently had a baby, you must write a post on how wonderful your baby is, sleeping through the night at 5 days old, being super cuddly and agreeable, gaining weight like a champion, and the closest thing to perfection in human form.
But I'm not here to write that post.
Because until I moved her and I down to the guest room where the furnace noises rumble all night, Katri wasn't letting me sleep much, if at all. This wasn't a bit fun considering how hard it is to get a nap with 3 other kids and considering our family caught the stomach flu bug a SECOND time this fall, causing me to lose all remaining hopes of ever sleeping or feeling normal again.
Many a night I tell my hubby I feel like I'm a slave to a two foot tall tyrant.
And he nods in agreement, because it's true.
I can barely set her down long enough to go to the bathroom once or twice a day!
A shower is a big accomplishment!
Katri is a "womb service" kind of girl, wanting to be held all day and all night too, though I've recently gotten her to the point of just sleeping inches away from me instead of in my arms. I am so glad I bought the book, "The Happiest Baby on the Block" at a yard sale this summer because it helped me to understand the fourth trimester and how to care for needy newborns who miss the womb.
My hubby adores babies and was hoping she'd be another "Daddy's Girl" whom he could cuddle every night but instead, she usually insists on being held by Mama exclusively, due in part to her 3-4 hour nursing jags in the evenings.
Don't get me wrong! Katrielle is every bit as loved and as darling to me as the super easygoing babies are to their mamas. She is snuggly and soft and doesn't cry when you are holding her. She makes the funniest little faces and delights our hearts as we spent countless minutes each day staring at her tiny fists, or her little peaceful face as she sleeps. We wouldn't trade her in for anything in the world! We would do anything for her, as my cricked neck from awkward sleeping positions attests!
But she is definitely a mystery to us sometimes! For the first time as parents we aren't sure what kind of personality she has yet. Easygoing or strongwilled, energetic or prim and proper, social or hermit-like--we don't know!For the first time we are having to use burp cloths, as she's the first baby we've had who spits up occasionally. She's the only baby we've had to burp consistently, and she absolutely adores being swaddled, which none of our other kids liked. She hangs out in a sling all day, unlike her sister who absolutely hated slings.
So, I live in a strange paradox of feeling totally confident in my mothering abilities with Baby #4 and totally unsure of what to do at other times. I know what I'm doing in a general sense, and yet, because each baby is so different, I still feel like I have much to learn and grow in as a parent of this little one.
The journey isn't easy and breezy, but I am enjoying it!!!